Word Vomit

Hey Steve! What’s up? Just thought I’d update my blog since this has not happened in 2 years.

How’s Word Vomit you say? Well it still happens from time to time, just hasn’t had the pleasure of being documented.

Had a great weekend after coming off of a so-so week. My friend Missy and I went tubing down the Shenandoah River for several hours on Saturday. It was very relaxing and a good chance to catch up on all the bull shit that we call life. I must admit though I am still very sore from the trip. We swam so much, and where it didn’t seem like much at the time, my abs and upper arms would have to disagree with that.

Went to a party later that evening at my drummer Dave’s friends’ house. Just kind of hung out there, had I gotten there a little earlier I could have taken part in some volleyball, woot woot! I have some friends that play on Sundays, I definitely need to get down with that.

Sunday, I didn’t do much of anything except have dinner with Jason and upload pictures on the MySpace. Dinner was good, went to the Brew Pub. I always have good food there, I just wish it didn’t take me so damn long to choose something that I want to eat without having to worry about my pocket falling out.

My band Noctunal Ascent has a show coming up this weekend in Centreville, VA. I’m not too nervous, but we need to get in some practices this week. We haven’t played a show since last September due to some time that we were forced to take off, but I guess this is what they call back in the saddle. This will be our biggest show that we have played to date. It’s a benefit show and we’ll be playing with 2 other bands. Should be about 200-300 people. If you’re interested, it’s Saturday Aug. 16. Bands will start playing around 6. I think we are up first. The cost is $20 and this includes free beer, free food, and other events. Hit me up for more details.

Life in general: My summer break is coming to an end and I have to go back to work next Monday. I am teaching high school graphics and photography as well as taking on the responsibility of the yearbook. I survived last year, so we’ll see if I can make it through year 2. My kids have been really awesome and give me lots to talk about on my days off. It’s nice to be working in a creative field because there are some kids that can just blow you away with their talent.
I’ve also been trying to buy a house. Been looking since February, but haven’t had too much luck as of yet. Properties in my price range are either small, have bad locations, or need lots of work. It’s a huge investment, so I’m taking my time some, which I also means that I have missed out on a couple of places that I was really interested in. I’ll be a little more aggresive on the next one.

Love Life: Non-existent! There have been a few people that have caught my eye over the last couple of years, but none have really made too big of an impression on me. So I am just laying low, and I’m pretty content with it. I’ve been very selective with who I would like to spend my time with and in turn there are sometimes that I get down and lonely, but I’m pretty sure that is normal. There’s no room to settle!

I’ve been working on trying to fit reading into my schedule. After finding an author that I am really into, it hasn’t been to hard to find the time. Try checking out essays written by David Sedaris, you won’t be dissappointed.

Fin.

I don’t know what my title oif this blog entry means, but that’s what it said when I logged in here. I haven’t been blogging much on here or on myspace, guess I’ve been a little busy and haven’t really spent that much time on the computer.

I moved back from Harrisonburg last week for good. I haven’t graduated yet, but I will be commuting in the fall. I only have classes on tuesdays and thursdays so i decided to just suck it up and drive the hour there and back twice a week. I’m getting pretty excited about finishing up as I have been since like sophomore year. School is really a drag most of time that I am there, but sometimes rather enjoyable.

I took another summer class this year. I had sculpture which i got an A in. I learned a lot of cool things like how to weld and use plaster, my project turned out pretty cool I would say.

Since I’ve been back I have a had a few noteworthy adventures, that I’ll get into later, but so far this week I have gone tubing on the Shenandoah, participated with my summer bowling league, and then today I will be going to see DC United play and my friend Devon is dressing out for the game, so keep your fingers crossed that he’ll get to play.

Later this week I will be visiting the Pink Sock for a party on Friday and then my family will be hosting another wedding event for my sister on Saturday. Heather’s wedding is rapidly approaching and there is still so much to do.

Anyways, that’s all I’ve got to time to write for now, must be getting upstairs to clean my room. Later!!!

I know I don’t write here much anymore. I haven’t stopped, I promise. I have been blogginf on myspace a good bit. I might copy and paste those over here. I probably will at some point.

Anyways…

I was just thinking about my car. I’m supposed to getting a new car this summer, I don’t know if this will really happen, but it’s the plan anyways. I don’t want to get rid of my car though. Not that I don’t want a new car to drive, but there are a lot of good memories I associate with my car. I guess a picture will have to be worth a thousand words in this case. I’m just wondering why one can’t keep a car like a scrap book, fold it up and put it under the bed or somewhere so you can look at and reminsice whenever you feel.

We will always have a “friend” or two based on the simple fact that some people don’t care enough to leave us for good, but when you find yourself all alone and wishing that you had someone to talk to and depend on to share your life with, don’t you dare forget that you had it, that you pushed it away, that it was always all about you, that you were the only one that you thought about, and that it was your selfishness that left you on your own. Some people forgive and forget, some people forgive and never forget, I hope that you are lucky enough to have people in your life that at least do the forgiving.

 

 This doesn’t necessarily make the most sense, sometimes I speak just to hear myself talk, that same principle may apply here.

Happy 23rd Birthday Liesel Anne Eby!!!

I went with my friend Jacqueline to the Feist show last night with opening performer Jason Collett. She got the tickets and I drove us. We found the Black Cat pretty easily and we always seem to luck out when finding parking (knock on wood). We also made a friend, which is always fun. This girl Amber was in need of a ticket and since we had an extra we were happy to oblige her. She hung out with us for the night since she was on her own. She was a really cool girl from California doing an internship in DC at National Geographic, wow, right?

So anyways I gotta say last night was an amazing show, I was under the impression that Jason Collett would not be so good, but I thought the show was great, not to mention he wasn’t too hard on the eyes! Feist was just fantastic. I don’t even really have other words that can describe their awesomeness. Leslie’s voice is so beautiful and she has such a dynamic range, not to mention she played the drums, piano, and guitar last night, a total package. A lot of talent in one room. If anyone has not checked them out you can find them here on myspace and that will direct you to their offical site which is very graphically appealing.

I started this blog a little over a year ago. I wanted a chance to write and to tell people what was going on in my life, how I was feeling, what I was doing, etc. Soon the reason I wrote in this thing was in hopes that one person could read how I felt about him. I could say all the things that I felt like I couldn’t say to him. I was still writing about my life, he was my life, and to some extent he still is. The funny thing is, I don’t even know if he does read it. So what’s the point? I would say to those who ask, is hope.

I had hoped that I could make a difference, that I could be a reason to get up in the morning. It turns out that I didn’t even know that the things I had hoped to be, were the things that I needed myself. He was that for me, he is that for me.

I can’t tell you what it’s like to wake up in the arms of the person you love, to look at your phone when it rings and see their name and get nervous everytime you talk to them, but feel like you are exactly where you are supposed to be everytime you look into their eyes.

So, this is it, this is intended to be my last entry in this blog. The blog that I love so much, but this chapter needs to be closed. And though I can pretend to close it in the physical world, it will be a chapter that remains unfinished in my heart, one marked with my favorite bookmark. After time passes and I have forgotten about the book, I will wonder about that bookmark that I loved so much, and go searching for that book again, only to open to that last chapter I left and finish, until then I am still unsure of how the book will end.

This doesn’t mean that I am done blogging, this just means that I’m going to try not to only write about how I feel about this one person. You can read my new entries at bcarp84.blogspot.com.

It has just been brought to my attention that even though I am not in a relationship, I am still taken. Which I must agree, to an extent, I already knew this. Because before everything I do I consider how this other person would react, so essentially Iive my life for two, even though only one is present.

That is all…

thanosT81 (6:45:36 PM): i was sitting there at the computer, and all of a sudden my stomach felt queasy. and wouldn’t you know it, i vomitted a word!
thanosT81 (6:45:45 PM):

Did you think on Dec. 7th when I wrote on Dec. 6th that this whole thing would end up being about you?